Celia’s Struggle

Eventhough it’s not my official weigh-in day, I couldn’t resist and I weighed this morning. I’m down 2.5 pounds since starting this Diet To Go program. Yay!!! Now my mini-goal is even closer!! I know you aren’t supposed to weigh yourself more than once a week, but I just had to. The little losses help to keep me motivated. I see the numbers and think “It’s working. It’s WORKING!”  I know from day to day you have normal ups and downs, but I’ve seen more downs, so I’m pretty darn excited. I think this plan is working for me because I don’t have to shop or prepare food. It’s really easy to grab bad foods as a snack when you are at the grocery store. This plan does everything for me. Is the food as good as I would cook at home? No, but it’s pretty good. Everything is portion controlled, so I don’t have to worry about that. You just take it out of the fridge. That’s it. Since I’m a vegetarian, this plan has a lot of soy meat alternatives. That’s one thing I’m not that used to yet. I think that is why I think the food is pretty good, and not fantastic. I never really ate meat replacements before. I figured I’d just get my protein elsewhere. Why would I want fake meat, if I am a vegetarian? Thank goodness they have substitutions available, because I’m not a fan of some dishes. NOT because they aren’t good, but because I don’t like the food that’s in them. Like sweet potatoes. I’ve never been a fan. Lentils. Never been a fan.

I’m very happy to see some progress finally. Yay!  

Well, I am on my first week on Diet To Go. So far, so good. There is only one item that I will substitute next time.  For the most part, the food is quite tasty. It saves so much time! There’s no planning, shopping, or preparing. It’s great. Since I cook for one, this makes it even easier. I’ve only been on the plan for 3 days now, but I quite like it. Hopefully it stays this good, or gets even better! It’s nice to have a plan where you don’t have to go to the store at all! This plan gives you your condiments, juices, fresh fruits, etc. EVERYTHING is included. It’s great! 

I’m wondering if anyone out there has tried the Diet To Go plan? If so, what did/do you think? I really need to get my butt in gear, and I just ordered this plan for a week to see how it will work for me.

I decided that I have a bit of motivation again, so yesterday I went to the store and bought everything I needed for my lunches, etc. this week. I woke up this morning, weighed myself (UGHH!), fed the cats, then started to work out. The exercise routine hasn’t really been in full swing for quite a while. Anyway, I did my cardio and strength, and I feel good. I even found a lip gloss that I’ve been looking for forever. I didn’t know what happened to it. Well, while I was on the floor doing leg lifts, I saw it under my couch! I’m thinking positively. One meal at a time!  

So, basically I’m losing my motivation. I’ve eaten an entire box of Samoa’s in 3 days!!! I can’t seem to get up and exercise. What is wrong with me???? Seriously. Other than the cookies, I haven’t been eating terribly. Salads, veggies, whole grains. I really wish that I could get motivated. Every time I get motivated, and work really hard, I don’t see results, and I think that’s my problem. It’s just so different for me now. Ever since I quit smoking, my body is just rebelling or something. I’ve never had weight issues like this. NEVER! I hope I wake up and this is all a bad dream.

So another crappy weigh-in this week with a weight gain.    It might be water weight because it’s that time of the month. I’m still going to follow my plan though and see what happens next week. So far, I just fluctuate between the same 5lbs. Very weird. I just don’t get it. I mean, I look at what I eat, and what every body else is eating, and I’m eating healthfully. That should account for something. I haven’t eaten anything fried in a very long time. I’m using portion control. I’m not binge eating anymore. I really don’t get it. Maybe I could try increasing my exercise. It makes me want to fall back into my anorexia pattern and just not eat anything. I’d see some results then! Of course that’s the disease talking, so if restricting will show results, it will show results doing it the right way. I’ll just be patient and see what happens next week. I hope not another gain. I think I’ll give up if that’s the case. I mean, if I can eat crap and stay the same as when I’m eating healthy, it gets a little discouraging and makes me want to give up.

You know…. I promised myself I would bring my lunch to work this week, and it didn’t happen. I ate out every day so far. True, I didn’t go grocery shopping last week so I didn’t have much to choose from, but that’s no excuse. I hate doing this to myself, and sabotaging my plan. Eventually I’m just going to stop believing what I say. I need to do what I say I’m going to do. If I can’t count on myself, who can I count on?

I was all freaked out about my weigh-in this morning, and I gained 1.5 pounds. I knew it. That’s okay. I’ll just pick myself up, and start over again. I know where I went wrong. I shouldn’t have skipped meals, and I need to make myself a priority and take the time to prepare my lunch in the morning. Even that isn’t an excuse though. I live 5 miles from my work. The mornings I forgot my lunch, I said to myself I’d just go home for lunch, but that didn’t happen. I went out to eat instead. I did order soup, salads, or veggie sandwiches, but you can see where that got me. I will do better this week, and make my health a priority. I’m worth it!

I’m a little nervous for tomorrow’s weigh-in. I haven’t followed my plan exactly, and I’ve skipped meals. Hopefully I won’t gain. At this point I don’t even care if I lose anything, just as long as I don’t gain. I haven’t worked out since January. I started school, and everything has gone to crap. Working full-time, and schooling half-time doesn’t give me much me-time. Not to mention I’m exhausted! I became a vegetarian and gave up caffeine (this year’s resolutions), and I sleep forever now. I’m not sure if it’s the lack of caffeine or not exercising or what, but I sure am exhausted all of the time. 

I have never had this hard of a time losing weight in my life! I’ve never had such a weight problem though either. Maybe that’s the reason. I decided to follow the Slim-Fast plan once again. I had success with it many moons ago, and since I’m having such a hard time, I figured I’d give it another shot. I had my first weigh-in after starting the plan, and I lost 1.1 pounds in a week. I was really hoping for at least two, but I have to be happy about it. I know 1-2 pounds per week is healthy, I just wanted the high end.

I tried to blog this weekend, but it seemed the blogs were down. Oh well, they are up and running again now. I hope I continue to lose because I am really uncomfortable at this weight.